1008 gayatris experience
- playing with speed of the mantra
- shinzen young: focusing on 'clarity' of sound, and how it may relate to shinzen young description of clarity as being highly attuned to deconstructed moment to moment sensation. sound is a kind of vibration similar to sensation, all localize to vibrations in the tongue and body. in focusing on producing clear sound, i am perhaps focusing on clear sensation.
- i kept wobbling while standing and allowing myself to wobble without clinging (yes im releasing!) or avoiding (i should not move). just trying to trust the goddess to guide me into a deeper practice. i felt something like a release in my ankles and calves by the end of it.
- like running, chanting is non-linear. things suck, i want to stop and go back to bed, then things become pleasant. it teaches me to stick to a goal and just do it, ignoring the feelings along the way.
- around 400 repetition, i felt the encompassing depth feeling again, like something was wrapped around me and i liked it. it felt deep and spacious, that's the only description i have. no visuals and it only lasted maybe 10 repetitions or so. i'm getting better about not clinging to it.
awareness / sensation loop
I FINALLY CAUGHT A BUG IN MY JHANA ATTEMPTS!
When a pleasurable feeling arises, instead of tuning into the feeling, I fixate on the physical part of the body where the feeling is. This makes the feeling go away. If I use the cue tune into the feeling instead of putting my awareness there, my experience is way less fragmented!
The insight is the feeling is already there and I'm already feeling. So why would I 'move' my awareness to feel more of it. Another cue could be keep your awareness where it is because that's where the feeling is!
Only took over a year to realize this...
Hopefully I can save some other schizo some time.
A radio between channels gives static and interference! I literally feel that in my experience, my eyes start twitching. The move there is to go up or down.
another cue, for the body
stop the dividing action of the mind in its awareness of the body and instead be whole, like an actor.
"Weep with those who weep"
"An old ministry proverb, which I greatly appreciate, says that people “don’t care how much you know till they know how much you care”"
One can pray for more empathy!
"Part of compassion is sympathizing with others even when you see their crisis as a minor inconvenience or have a ready solution to their problems. After all, Jesus wept at the tomb of Lazarus in love for his friend, and for Mary and Martha, even though he was about to raise him from the dead and “fix” the problem in the next ten minutes. Solving people’s problems is not wrong, but compassion first enters their world, rather than dragging them into yours."
And practice rejoicing with those who rejoice (amma). Join her, don't just observe. Feel into her worldview.
Covers of medicine songs never have the same sense of beautiful tragedy as the originals. It's too happy, carefree, and this makes it feel superficial. I'm not sure the indigenous are in a happy, carefree place right now. Or maybe I'm just biased towards music in the mood of struggling hope.
Are aromatic compounds in the planar / cyclic sense literally aromatic, like they give off smells?
Aromatic compounds:
- benzene
Paroxetine blocks CYP2D6
What does it mean for an enzyme to be "expressed" somewhere, like the liver or substantia nigra?
- Every cell has the DNA for thousands of enzymes, but only a subset of genes are turned on in any given cell type.
- “Expression” means the gene is being transcribed into messenger RNA (mRNA) and then translated into the enzyme’s protein form.
The Judiciary Committee checks if laws are being properly enforced and whether agencies or officials are acting within legal boundaries
Hearings are formal meetings where the committee calls witnesses (government officials, experts, or private citizens) to provide testimony or answer questions.
Ranking Member: Leader of the minority party members on the committee.
It's part of the legislative branch, and so it's made up of congressmen proportional to party seats.
#anki
can you elaborate on the practical counter-measures? isn't legislation up to congress? they can ignore the judiciary right? and couldn't the executive and legislative branch just ignore any official reports or recommendations? and i'm very interested in this referral to prosecutor and ethics committee and internal disciplinary measures. can you elaborate as much as you can on this last point?
Facebook Oversight Hearing by Subcommittee on Crime and Counterterrorism
- april 9th 2025
- deleted the fb profile of a chinese dissident living in america
- share american user data with china, but not sure what data specifically
- girls who delete their profile pictures are flagged as low self-esteem and targeted with make-up ads. for some reason i do not have sympathy. but teens are teens.