Invoke Christ, feel the wavering in your heart, then still that, or inquire into that, instead of leaving the prayer. It's probably similar for many things in life, especially scripture and relationships.

Moved by Gargi's faith in me.

Concentration feels more embodying than exercise.

Concentrate on the coldness during the cold shower rather than dissociating. Same with subtle pains. Try turning up the clarity.

Don't turn away from sensations like aches. Just take the right view to it. It's one with awareness. The pain in your legs can dissolve and transform. Turning away is an unhelpful habit.

Spinning back and forth on whether waldorf teacher training was the right choice. If I should take the psychology or law path instead. Dreamt that k was judging me for it and wanted me to be more ambitious and I caved. Will #lookback in a few months.

"Sri Aurobindo: Through purity and sincerity one is secure from the Asuras. They might give you blows, they might deceive and befog the mind, they might retard and make you commit mistakes, but if you have the white light of purity and sincerity they cannot harm you. There is no definitive fall, you will go through."

I can have a brief semi-vivid visualization of the Mother, maybe because I read just her words.

I do have natural love and compassion and desire to be of benefit for certain people. The broken, dissociated, lonely outcasts. Lean into that and let it grow to everyone else.

really liked the cue of being like an attentive parent to experience
'oh, wow, what is this being saying'
while still being aware of the emptiness / awareness
rosan is quite good at shifting into that

try turning up the clarity on knee pain